Roller coaster journey
3.29.10 - Says that I'm selfish and that I make him feel less important compared to "others" (namely my family) because I pay for them. See "Text Messages 3.29 - 3.30.10" for more detailed story. Kids, marriage, family, love, philosophy was all part of the 7 hour discussion. And I cried so much then told him that I would make things easier by giving him space and moving out.
+ Text him in the afternoon to let him know that I wasn't going to move out and that I acted out based on my emotions at the moment. Also that he drives me insane, but I also love him to death at the same time. Also mentioned that earlier in our relationship, I wrote him a letter and told him that we should always do our best and because we deserve to be treated with love and respect. Later that afternoon, I went to Trader Joe's and went grocery shopping. When I got home, he was still sleeping (about 5pm) and I basically kissed him and told him that I was sorry and comforted him.
3.28.10 - didn't show appreciation for bringing him a strawberry julious while I was at the mall. He didn't want the same fish as I cooked two nights ago. Felt a bit of a disconnect from him emotionally and physically.
+ text him at 1:39 pm that I was going to the mall with Wen-mei. . He text back at 2:28 pm to take my time and that he would grab food and watch movies. Gave him a kiss to greet him and snuggled next to him and gave him several kisses on the lips. he cooked eggs and I cooked the spam. He gave me a kiss goodbye before he left for work.
3.26.10 - topher got frustated with me because I forgot to turn the heater off again. I was upset and he could clearly tell that I was. Then I gave him the silent treatment.
+ 10:23 pm on 3.27 I texted Topher to forgive me for my behavior (the silent treatment) and that we should treat each other the way we would want to be treated. He said sorry for his frustration.
Last week we had another miscommunication. It was sparked from me stating a grammatical error.
3.25.10 - argument. money for food and how costly it is. questioned whether I'm able to afford mortgage payment if I'm not able to pay for food. told me to leave him alone and that he would cook us breakfast. so i left.
+ told him thank you for cooking breakfast, but he did not respond.
3.24.10 - argument. brought up Topher going out last Friday and coming home extrememly intoxicated at 4am. discussed imbalanced relationship.
+ asked why does he stay with me if I'm so difficult. he said because he loves me.